“Re-Writing Lolita: Nabokov Fan Fiction and the Reader as Literary Rebel”

The structured procrastination, she continues. In the midst of writing seminar papers and preparing to fly to Visby, I cobbled together an abstract for another grad student conference from an essay I wrote last year on Lolita and fan fiction. The conference, “Agency and Its Limits,” is happening at Stanford in April; from the call for papers it sounds like they’re interested in the reader as responding subject, and such. Ah, but are they interested in X-Men/Nabokov slash?

“Re-Writing Lolita: Nabokov Fan Fiction and the Reader as Literary Rebel”

First and foremost, Lolita is a book about recreating the world through writing. Humbert Humbert’s posthumously discovered manuscript, his obsession with literary references, even Lolita–who proves less a flesh-and-blood girl than a text–allow our most unreliable of narrators to rewrite his life through literature. This has, in turn, inspired countless readers to respond to the novel with their own writing and revisions. Prodigious work by academic scholars joins book-length fiction (e.g. Lo’s Diary, a rewriting of Humbert’s narrative through the eyes of Lolita) along with filmic and dramatic reinterpretations in the long list of material produced by readers who take a cue from Humbert and use their writing to recreate his world. In fact, the readers who have claimed the most agency over the original are also those with the least writerly “authority”: amateur “fan fiction” enthusiasts publishing their own short stories about Humbert and Lo online.

This paper will engage in a close reading of a piece of Lolita fan fiction, “A Veritable Lolita.” Written by one of the literally hundreds of thousands of anonymous authors on FanFiction.net, “A Veritable Lolita”–which re-envisions the young Dolores as a fresh-faced X-Man–raises questions of lowbrow vs. highbrow writing, creativity and authorship, and going beyond “the canon.” As social commentators like MIT’s Henry Jenkins have noted, internet communities like FanFiction.net, which have flourished over the last two decades, “constitute a scandalous category in contemporary American culture, one that… provokes an excessive response from those committed to the interests of textual producers.” It is response that the rebellious reader harnesses in rewriting Lolita, the legacy of which is always being rewritten.

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Bonnie goes to Sweden, talks about everything ever

There appears to be a decently high chance that I will be up and flying to Visby this Sunday to speak at the University of Gotland. Gotland, as I, a member of the geographically largely uneducated, have only recently learned, is a chunk of Sweden separated from the mainland by some cold, cold Baltic Sea. There it will be snowing. My it-dropped-below-50-I’m-freezing San Francisco self will show up doubtless unprepared.

The university runs a course in video games and human rights, and they’ve invited me to talk for an hour (or three) to 200-ish students about sex/gender in games. The teacher in me having been recently rekindled by this semester’s grad student instructing, I’m toying with the idea of putting together more of a lesson plan than a lecture. Circle up, everyone, and share…

Specifically, I’m daydreaming of a creative lesson, something like “Re-Doing Sex/Gender in Games,” which would get broken down into three sections (gender, sexuality, and sex). For each, I’d talk a bit about how these currently work, what their role is in the community, and show clips of game content. Then, after identitying problematics, I’d have student work in teams to come up with their own content: character design, storylines that include sexuality, sex mechanics.

From there they’d present, and we’d critique as a group. The idea would be to get these students, potential future game designers, thinking critically about ways to do things differently. Of course, there are lots of things that could go wrong: covering too much territory (first and foremost), having the wrong kind of room for group work, shy attendees — hell, even the basic going-to-Sweden thing might fall through.

In any case, it’s lovely to be thinking about games again. Soon it’ll be back to writing about surrealist illustrations of Sade and Kafka as a precursor to cybersex. Oh, the shackles of academia…

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“Making Monsters”

One of the things I’ve put a lot of time into over the last few weeks is designing a theoretical syllabus for my pedagogy course. Ideally, when I teach my own class next fall (intro to literature and college writing), I can put the syllabus into use.

Following in the footsteps of a course I thought I might be co-teaching in the spring, the working title is “Making Monsters,” and it’s about pulling apart the social construct of monstrosity — and, of course, learning to write. See the course description below.

“Making Monsters: Gender, Sexuality, and Monstrosity as Literary Constructs”

Monsters come in many forms: furry and clawed, grotesque and menacing, mysterious, dangerous, unclassifiable, sometimes surprisingly human. Every society constructs its own monsters, its own ideas of what it means to be monstrous. Literature both reflects and critiques the ideas of the culture in which it was created. Accordingly, texts about monsters ask us to question what it means to be monstrous in the first place. Does having an usual body make a creature a monster? Are violent behavior, sexuality, or even gender grounds for the label of “monstrous?” With an emphasis on queer and feminine monstrosity, this course explores what literary monsters have to teach us about reading our own concepts of that which is socially acceptable and that which is “wild.”

Major texts:
Where the Wild Things Are (book and movie)
Grendel
The Bloody Chamber

Supplemental texts:
– “Carmilla,”
– Excerpts from The Aeneid
Une Semaine de Bonté

Rarr. Happy nerd Bonnie is happy.

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“Collecting the Mouse: Disney Pin Culture and the Consumption of Sentiment”

It turns out structured procrastination is a beautiful thing. While trying not to practice for my upcoming German translation exam (500 words, 1.5 hours, 1 stressed Bonnie), I brainstormed, researched, and wrote this abstract about Disney pin collecting culture for the University of Southern California‘s upcoming grad conference on collection fads call “Kitsch, Curios, Camp.”

On a clearly unrelated note, the boys and I went to Disneyland a few weekends ago, where life is surprisingly fun and Michael Jackson continues, via the wonders of 3D, to force us all to experience his magic.

“Collecting the Mouse: Disney Pin Culture and the Consumption of Sentiment”

Pay attention in a crowd at Disneyland, Euro Disney, even a Disney cruise ship, and you’ll encounter a fellow visitor — there presumably, like you, to “experience the magic” — wearing a striking number of metal pins. Suddenly they’re everywhere, sporting hundreds of Disney-themed pins on lanyards, vests, hats: Minnie Mouse, cheerleading; Eeyore wrapped in an American flag. The most visible of these collectors, camped like buskers on the quaint sidewalks of Epcot and The Magic Kingdom, display their wares on velvet cloths. Their game: trading official Disney pins, of which there are thousands, in an attempt to find limited edition gems, long elusive favorites, or just like-minded enthusiasts. Introduced to the L.A. park in 1999 by the mouse himself, the pass time has since spread across the world, where collectors host conventions, follow a strict set of trade regulations, and have even been banned from Tokyo Disney for impeding the “magical” experience of others.

Reminiscent of the mid-1990’s Beanie Babies fanatics, “Disney Pin Collectors” — as they label themselves, on a vast array of websites and forums dedicated to the hobby, with proud capital letters — skew toward the middle-aged: adults filling their curio cabinets and closets alike with enamel Mickeys. Online, spouses lament the “addiction” that drives enthusiasts to spend $7 to $75 a piece for souvenirs each only two inches wide; particularly rare pins sell on eBay for up to $500. Meanwhile, collectors themselves echo Disney’s sentiment that each new pin helps “bring the magic to you,” solidifying the nostalgia of Sleeping Beauty or the ephemeral excitement of a day at Disneyland into an object: reassuring, portable, fungible.

From a cultural studies perspective, the pin-collecting phenomenon — which recently added a whole new audience to its ranks with its inclusion in the online game Virtual Magic Kingdom — brings into focus not only questions of kitsch, but also of collecting’s emotional value. Considering Marx’s “commodity fetishism,” as well as Freud’s notion of the fetish, Disney pins become more than hard-won curiosities. They also represent a uniquely fetishized sentamentality: the free-market item (bought, sold, traded, hoarded) whose true value is not monetary but emotional. More so than other consumerist fads, Disney pins come inherently wealthy with the associations of a collective cultural childhood. They serve, as the fetish, to remind collectors of that emotional tie at the same time they distract from it, tempting the consumer to fulfil the sentimental longing associated with the object itself — the image of a beloved character, of a happy memory — through endless act of consumption.

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“Dido (The End of Falling)”

Today (November 15th) is a very frustrating day. It is made better by the fact that my brain wrote this sort of awful, sort of awesome poem on the BART this morning.

Maybe I spent too much of my weekend reading surrealist manifestos. I take no responsibility and/or credit for this attemt at automatic writing, which had as its prompt only the name “Dido.” We’re just going to ignore the fact that she, in The Aeneid, is actually not too fond of water.

“Dido (The End of Falling)”

Dido
queen of the seas
my mother was her lover.

   I don’t know what they saw
in each other, who
were never
meant to be tied to the land,
my feelings her feelings
the feelings
   of the soil.
There are times

in her eyes
the coming of the thing.
Tomorrow is the day when
   ships will wreck
when wretches roll, crows
afoot stop flying

And looking back was love
   enough to bind the heart
  who fell from trees, swooping,

   lowered, and never knew
   the end of falling.

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“We Were Living in the Woods”

If you live in the Bay Area, the scenic intersection of Haight and Fillmore is officially recommending you go see Ericailcane‘s show at Upper Playground. It involves awesome (i.e. creepy, i.e. awesome) sculptures of woodland creatures with big glossy eyes and sharpened clay teeth dressed in people clothes and harming each other. Also, these beautiful (i.e. disturbing, i.e. beautiful) ink and watercolors.



Such, of course, are the benefits of living in an awesome neighborhood: rolling out of bed toward the French cafe down the street, and accidentally finding yourself in a gallery full of excellent art. Dear San Francisco, thank you for letting me live inside you.

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“Wedding Booth Vikings”

These photos of my parents and aunt came from a booth set up at my cousin’s wedding in May. They are, for those who know my family, very strange. 1) These people very rarely pose for picutres. 2) These people very rarely smile. 3). These people are wearing unusual hats. UNUSUAL HATS.

There’s a small set of these photos, “Wedding Booth Vikings,” which I culled from wedding photos en masse. I’m going to go ahead and call them found art. Is that absurd? Why, of course. But seriously, study in humanity.

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I convinced 35 college freshmen that Sade was a feminist. This is awesome.

Last week I taught my lesson plan on Sade’s Justine and Juliette and Angela Carter‘s Sadeian Woman. Who knows what evil lurks in the hearts of undergrads, but they all seemed decently comfortable talking about pornographic material (ah, the libertinage) and I got no objections to our/Carter’s/my ultimate conclusion that the Divine Marquis was a surprisingly progressive guy. This, I feel in my feeling place, is an accomplishment.

As one of the readings from my Pedagogy class recently reminded me though (yes, this is a course in which we get taught about teaching), even those of us who encourage “risky” readings make our readings stale and “safe” by presenting them as predetermined conclusions. I’m not sure how to win on that one. So Sade isn’t a feminist? Or I shouldn’t say it? Or I shouldn’t think it? Can I just love him in the deep dark recesses of my literary heart if I never tell?

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“Ascanius”

What am I doing on a Saturday night? Yes, writing poetry about the Aeneid. At the moment I’m quite fond of this piece, actually. Then again, it just feels really good to be writing something (see: anything) in a creative register after so much time.

“Ascanius”

Ascanius the boy, not yet the destined king,
but the youth who’d toddled
through the ashes of Troy, at the age of twelve
squirmed on the lap of Dido
who mistook his blush in her arms
for love.
.
In this one motion, the body turned.
Her breast—flat, hard,
a man’s, the childless rock of
Carthage—softened.

And in the same motion the gods, who’d set this trap,
took from the queen and gave to Aeneas
her desire for the child,
for the golden trickle of his hair,
(lighter than his father’s, than her own)
sparking in her heart, denied its true object,
its first suicidal flames.

Mad then from that first diverted blush
stronger even than deceit, her love
twisted again, in the very same moment and,
forced to substitute the flesh of the man
for the flesh of the boy,
it conceived in the queen a third desire:
the desire for a child of her own
with beauty more than Cupid’s, disguised,
more than that of the pious hero,

a child who himself would have only stood as a reminder
of the original lost lover,
not Aeneas, not the father, but the boy.

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“My Life as a Little Fable”

Tying up some loose ends at Heroine Sheik, I realized I’d never posted this interesting little photo project I did when I was back in Philadelphia last December.

Follow the link for the rest of the set.

After trying (and failing) to document the house I grew up in, I started shooting from the ground, and came up with some striking results that bring to mind issues of perspective, childhood, boundaries, entrapment, vulnerability — and, of course, the Kafka short, “A Little Fable.” for which the series is named.

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